In my almost four years of my stay in the seminary, I learned many things, especially about the importance of spiritual life. I learn to discipline myself, to deal with other people, to speak in front of many people, to value time, and most of all I learn to deepen my spiritual life. I am really fortunate to have time to deepen my relationship with God. It is in the seminary that I learned to pray well. It is in the seminary that I learned to become dependent to God and to put my trust in him. It is in the seminary that I developed my devotion to our Blessed Mother. It is in the seminary that I came to know myself by recognizing my strength and weaknesses. The seminary gives me opportunity to talk to God and provides enough time to reflect on my situation in life. The seminary taught me to share my experience, to share my thoughts and my experience of God to other people. It is in the seminary that I learn to do my reflections. The seminary also taught me about the importance of the Eucharist. I realized that the Eucharist must be the center of my life. This is my advantage of being in the seminary. My spiritual life was being developed little by little in the seminary. Seminary is the one who formed the spiritual aspect of my life.
However, seminary is also a discernment place, wherein a person who is aspiring to become a priest is discerning his vocation. I tried my best with the help of my spiritual director to know and discover God’s will for me. I tried to discover the purpose of my stay here in this seminary. My spiritual director is always telling me that I am being formed both physically and spiritually for my future apostolate later on, whether I become priest or not. He said that the difficulties and trials are just challenges in order for me to become strong person in the future.
Moreover, as of the moment, there is only one thing I would like to do and that is to share the blessings and the love of God that I am experiencing to other people. I would like to help other people especially the poor and the marginalized. I would like them to realize that God loves them despite their situation in life. I want them to realize the importance of prayer and trust in God in their daily life. In order for me to become successful in doing this, I will start in myself. I will show to them the feeling of being embrace by God. I will show to them that I am being love by God. I need to become a model of God’s love. I need to show to them that God is working in me and through me. This is what I want to develop as of the moment. I need to have intimate relationship with God. So that in doing so I can become a model of God’s loves for them. If I am able to do that, it is become easy for me to help them and it will become easy for them to believe in me.
